I am who I am

2010-03-21T03:22:00.000-07:00

只想说。。

最近我真的很不开心。

几时？

我才能遇见我的开心果？

Holiday Mode.

2009-11-23T07:18:00.000-08:00

-Current Wei-

I have a super tidy hair cut for myself today.

My holiday mode is on.

I am wasting my times and money everyday.

I couldnt find myself a nice part time job.

Everyday hide in indoor,

snooker, snooker and snooker.

as u can see I am having fair skin now.

Seems like i have lost all my direction,

seriously need to get it all back.

I have super enough sleep everyday,

somemore sleep too much leads me headache.

I have super enough times for me to eat,

but I dun really eat, lose my appetite, gain my gastric problems.

Haiz. dun even know what to write more.

better go on bed and watch my new DVDs.

Goodnight.

一个他的故事

2009-11-19T10:57:00.001-08:00

今夜，

我想在此分享一个关于他的故事。

他。。在我生命里扮演了一个重要的角色。

我也把他深深地埋藏在我的心里。

我已经把锁给锁牢了。

一个不可能会有人能打开的锁。

他陪过了我度过很多的难关。

可是，给我印象最深刻的是有一次。

我和我家人发生的一些争吵，离开了我的家。

当他看到我的时候，我泪流满面。

他并没有多问我几句，只是默默地陪伴着我。

那一夜，他收留了我。

还记得隔天我有考试。

尽管他的眼皮犹如石头那么地沉重，他还是不顾一切的疲惫。

一声不坑地在我身边陪我熬了一整个通宵。

那一刻，我告诉了我自己。

不管以后发生了什么事情，我永远都会在他的身边。

做他唯一的守护天使。

“说的容易，做得难。”

我忘了当初对他的承诺，

让他心痛了，碎了。泪流了，也干了。

很快的我们之间就化上了句号。

很早，他就有了他的生活，

而我还是停留在一样的地方。

是他，

让我相信当你真的很想一个人的时候，

无意中，你就会在空气中闻到一种属于他的味道。

人，真的能够不求一切的回报，而无怨无悔地付出吗？

人，真的可以永远地爱着同样的一个人吗？

我只能说，

你爱的那个人，不会是陪你度过下半辈子的人。

适合你的人，才会陪你度过下半辈子的人。

“他”，

我还是很爱你。

“我”

wei is back

2009-11-18T10:52:00.000-08:00

好久没留下痕迹在这里了。

没留下不是因为我没有心事，

也许是因为有些事不是只把一切的不满，

发泄在这个不知道有没有读者的小空间就可以了。

我慢慢地学会面对事实，

尽我的权利把事情解决，

也许往往可能结果不是你想像的那样。

那么这个时候，应该告诉自己，

“我已经尽力了。”

因为，没有人是十全十美的。

每个人，都有自己的缺点。

做人，要学会如何去包含一个人的缺点。

而不是对人的缺点指指点点。

最近，我学会了告诉自己。

看一个人不顺眼，是我自己本身修行的问题。

不要每次指着人家，说他的缺点。

因为每当你手指在指着一个人的时候，

人总是往往忘记其他四个手指是指向自己的。

感谢老天给我一对肉肉的耳垂。

一方面，讨人喜欢。

一方面，也证实了我的心太软。

有时候，好人是不容易当的。

当你发觉到你帮的那个人，是完全不值得你帮的话，

别气馁，就告诉自己。。

“只少我看清楚这个人的真面目”

最后，

要记得。

好朋友是不需要每天见面的。

因为我们知道我们彼此的心里有对方就足够了。

我的好朋友，

听见了吗？

Happy birthday to me, myself

2009-10-25T11:27:00.001-07:00

Happy Birthday Wei!!

Trying to show my excitement on my big day

which in fact I am kind of like emo on my big day.

Once the clock strikes twelve,

you are the first one also the only one who called me

and wished me happy birthday.

Once you take a look at my heart,

you are also the first one of mine

and the only one of mine.

I have locked you at the inner part of my heart

which no one will have the chance to get the key and unlock it.

How much I wish you are here celebrating with me

no matter is just only me and you.

I miss the cake you used to bake for me during my big day.

I missed the surprises you prepared for me.

Tonight, my brain is just keep on flashing back all those memories.

Memories of D & S.

2009-10-16T02:13:00.000-07:00

Recently, i have watched a lot movies like

The Ugly Truth,

The proposal,

Ghost of Girlfren past,

50 first dates.

i wish I can know the reason of why You always in my mind

while I am watching those scenes.

I miss the days you explain to me what is meaning of the English word

that i dun understand.

I miss the days we spent the whole afternoon in the tv room.

Your hand is always with snacks.

Enjoying the movie.

Never bother I was so bored out there accompany you.

Kick me or pinch my nose if i fell asleep.

I found those movies are so bored last time,

but nowadays every single of the movies touched my heart.

Human are all the same.

Never know how to cherish until you lost it.

Prom

2009-10-05T14:52:00.000-07:00

Bel n Me

Phebe n ME

I didnt take a lot photos on that night.

Coz was in a rush. No camera. No higher pixel handphone.

Sad right?

overall, it is a very boring prom

and sucks dinner.

Salad, mashed potato with mushroom sauce,

mushroom soup, chicken with mushroom sauce,

black pepper lamb.

I just feel everything is so mushroom!

Ofcoz a lot of M.U gals..

guy wil get wad i mean.

I think I will never attend prom anymore.

Really sucks..

漫漫长夜

2009-09-18T12:10:00.000-07:00

漫漫的长夜，做在卡啦包厢里。

今夜的我没有和朋友狂欢。

一个人静静地坐在那里，

等待我所点唱的歌。

不知道为什么今夜的我能够深深地融入在歌词里。

深深体会歌词所要表达的意思。

开始厌倦我的生活。

希望能够离开美里，到另个地方从来。

其实人生就如一盘棋。。

一旦你走错了一步，就影响了结局。

痛恨我自己年少不懂事，走错了一步。

导致一直以来在我心中的一个遗憾。

人就是要直到失去了才知道珍惜。

身边的人也变得越来越危险。

随着年纪越大，

身边的人的可信度就越来越低。

永远都要学着保护自己。

不要给他人利用。

夜深了，静得我可听见我无能为力的心跳声。

笑一笑，雨过天晴。

Bro's back in Miri

2009-08-31T10:02:00.000-07:00

Jen & Lina

Still the Bro

W&J

Phebe, Shirley, Wei

My hot san shan

Nana...your~

FAT

-Merdeka Day-

Island-->Thai Bar-->Rexbox ( Beijing )

My honey lemon

2009-08-20T03:25:00.000-07:00

Honey Lemon,

you are just like the medicine to cure every sickness of me.

especially when I am having sore throat..

Honey Lemon,

Thanks for appearing in my life.

Thanks for letting me know the taste of honey.

I just cant stop myself drinking a glass of honey lemon everyday.

Ever since I found you,

I know I gotta drink this for the rest of my life.

Love you

2009-08-16T21:30:00.000-07:00

一些日子过了，

领悟了。

终于找到了。。

不敢许下更多的承诺，

只愿交出我真诚的心。

谢谢你，愿意交出你的心让我好好地呵护。

我会尽全力在你的生命留下美丽的回忆。

xoxo, Wei

Update my life~

2009-08-12T22:51:00.000-07:00

Look at the super got feelings face of him when he is singing~

Okay girls......

I drink I drink..

Dun keep force me to drink that..

That is illusion which easily makes me get tipsy..

Sing Sing Sing again..~

Should be singing Power Station song~

Eva & Jen

Look at the noob face again

Cally and Me.

The cousin's cousin.

Who easily get high and tipsy

At Give me 5.

while I am waiting my turn

He owes love to be so Cb Kuan

the photo can be so nice without him there kacao kacao

This is Phebe~ FAT B

Gou Linsi ma our face? hahahah

2009-08-01T09:45:00.000-07:00

A night out to Thai Bar

I was joining my cousin's cousin that night.

Below this is Cally Chiew.

I seriously dunno wad we were doing..

hahah

This is Eva.

A friendly gal who can sings well.

Okay. A closer look of Cally.

We are potato cousin haha.

Here is the group photo.

Calvin, Rachel, Kelly, Cally, Eva & Me.

actually there are other photos but i would not like to post it here.

Coz those photos were taken when i drank,

alcohol makes my face turned red.

Like monkey's ass..

random update

2009-07-19T09:06:00.000-07:00

My youngest bro- sheng

I dunno why he looks freaking emo.

should be jus been nagged by some adults

which annoys him the most.

I am not emo in fact,

I was just pretend to be emo.

wuahaha.

well, school reopen really soon.

new sem..new start..

Should I quit my clubbing life?

although I had a lot of fun last night.

still having the miserable life..

Insomia night

2009-07-03T10:48:00.000-07:00

Well, insomia as usual.

I should have an open minded family

so that I can smoke and drink at my house,

i do not need to go out, i can invite all my frens come

to my house gamble, drink and stuff.

but is too bad. so leads to i am fcuking bored owes.

How to cure my bored??

1) Apply for a part time job.

err..no way..I am not in the mood.

2) Go for a trip?

err.. financial problem.

3) Exercise.

I exercise on snooker table, considered so.

So, until now. I am stil having the life of

sleep when the sun comes out,

wake when the sun is about to say Goodbye.

typical vampire~

or else, I will go play snooker and snooker.

Sometimes, alcohol at the bar like an isolated one.

Argh. Wad kind of holidays is this?

I wonder, If i ask my parents sponsor me on

Sem break holiday trip,

i sure kena chop into pieces.

Not as xinfu as my other frens.

can get money from their parents~

haihz. money is everything for me.

2009-07-01T10:16:00.000-07:00

他們結婚已有兩年了。

他愛好文學，經常寫文章放上網絡，可是從來沒有人去看。

他也會攝影，他們結婚的照片就是他自己拍的。

他很愛她。

她也是。

她脾氣很大，經常「欺負」他，是個「辛辣小霸王」。

他脾氣不大，經常讓她，是個「廿四孝老公」。

今天，她又「任性」了。

她﹕「你為什麼不肯替我朋友的婚禮當攝影師？她答應價錢照付。」

他﹕「那一天我剛好沒時間。」

她﹕「哼！」

他﹕「嗯？」

她﹕「什麼沒時間？你少寫幾篇鬼都不看的小說，不就行了。」

他﹕「我相信總有一天，會有人欣賞的。」

她﹕「哼！不管怎樣，你一定要替她拍婚禮照。」

他﹕「不行。」

她﹕「就只一次。」

他﹕「一次也不行。」

談判失敗了。於是，她下了最後通牒﹕

「三天之內，必須答應，否則-- 」

第一天。

她「封鎖」了廚房、浴室、電腦、雪櫃、電視機、音嚮組合，

只有雙人床沒被「封鎖」，以示「寬宏大量」。

當然，她自己也要睡。

他不在乎，因為他口袋還有點零錢。

第二天。

她施以突襲，搜去他口袋的一切，並警告﹕

「瞻敢找「外援」的話，一切後果自負。」

他慌了。

晚上。

床上。

他求饒，希望她結束這種非常狀態。

她不睬他。決心不「軟」不能被他的花言巧語「迷惑」。

除非答應條件。

第三天。

晚上。

床上。

他靠在床上，頭朝東。

她靠在床上，頭朝南。

他﹕「我們好好談談。」

她﹕「不答應條件，不談。」

他﹕「我談的很重要。」

她不吭聲。

他﹕「我們離婚吧。」

她頭皮一炸，摸摸耳朵。

他﹕「我認識一個女孩。」

她氣極了，想爬起來與他打一場。

但她又忍住了，要讓他把話說完，

不能沒有「度量」，不過，她覺得眼睛有 點濕了。

他從胸口摸出一張照片。

她猜出他是從貼身襯衫口袋掏出來的，

因為前天只有這件襯衫沒有

搜索過，是看走了眼。

他﹕「這個女孩很漂亮很溫柔」

她淚水出來了。

他﹕「而且性格也挺好。」

她很傷心，因為他把別的女孩子的照片放在「貼心」的口袋。

他﹕「她說和我結婚後全力支持我寫作。」

她很嫉妒，因為當初她也對他說過這話。

他﹕「這個女孩是真心愛我的。」

她想爬起來朝他吼﹕「我不也是？」

他﹕「因此，我想她是不會逼我幹我不願意幹的事的。」

她在考慮，但她氣難消。

他﹕「你要看看我替她拍的照片嗎？」

她﹕「? 」

他把那張照片湊到她眼前。

她火氣很大，一掌打開他的手，

再在他瞼上留下鮮紅的五指印。

他嘆了口氣。

她出了口氣。

他把照片放回口袋。

她把手縮進被窩。

他把燈熄了，睡了。

她把燈開了，起來。

他睡著了。

她失眠了。

她後悔了，不該對他這樣。

她又哭了，想了很多。

她要把他喊醒，要和他親親熱熱地談談。

她絕不再逼他了。

她盯住他胸口。

她要看看那個女孩究竟是什麼樣子?

她摸出照片。

她又好氣又好笑，又想哭又想笑。

那是她自己的「標準照」。

是他替她拍的。

她俯下身來，在他的臉上親了一下。

他笑了。原來他也沒有睡著。

人與人相處 感情有時淡有時濃

只要 不要忘記最初的相識情境

感情才能長久

戀人、朋友皆是

******************************************************************

If you love something very very much....

Let it go free!!!...

If it doesnt come back...

It means it does not belong to you....

If it does, Please love it forever!.....

如果你很愛很愛某樣東西 就讓他自由吧!

如果他不回來, 那表示他並不屬於你...

如果他回來了, 要永遠愛他...

深夜感触

2009-06-22T11:24:00.000-07:00

心若倦了，

就让它休息吧。。

何必一直为它打强心针呢？

“滥用药物” 是不能治本的。

从一杯酒都会醉，

喝到十杯，二十杯都没有感觉。

问题还是存在。

给我烂多几个月，我看我也短命了几年。

尤其咪咪糊糊的过一生，

为何不振作起来？

心明明已经死了，

为何看到你就复活了呢？

What a night at Shanghai (Rexbox)

2009-06-19T09:32:00.000-07:00

The crew - Imba's'

Lucas Imba with the girls.

(except larissa, coz she was at toilet)

owning~ those gals..

The Lansi look of us~

muaks muaks.

Kim & Me.

CIBAI KIA ever.

I will just treat him as a hairstylist.

That's all!

The bday boy- Lucas

pls remember what I wrote on the bday card.

that's the only thing i requested from you.

I treat u as my BRO.

-Me and Nana-

The fren who take care of me the most.

Thanks Nana.

I was such a burden for you~

Whenever I went to club,

got you beside me,

I never worry.

Me and Ah Jen

My new Boss and Bro.

The Bro who answer calls all the times.

I will buy him a Bluetooth headset for him.

Thanks Bro for taking care of me too.

Me and Phebe

( so called Yo~ FATBEE )
A caring gal ever.

Guy.. go after her..

She will be a really nice gf~

Interested? pls leave msg at chatterbox.

Me and Bong

( so called 7 ge bong bong )

The gal who can sings fucking well.

Yi yang de yue guang~

p/s sorry for my cb look face.

I was tipsy~

Cont,

she is such a nappie, agree?

anyone who wanna hire a singer for any function,

I recommend Ah bong,

interested?

leave msg at my chatterbox.

**********************************************

The result of drunk.

Sorry bros and gals who take care of me.

Sorry Sasa..

I am sorry.
muaks.

Wow..

Even when I am sleeping also pointing middle finger.

I fell down at the stairs.

slept on the floor.

did a lot of silly thing.

Luckily I have frens who look after me.

Thanks Frens..

好想你

2009-06-16T06:52:00.000-07:00

你在哪里? 这些年来如意不如意?
还快乐? 还单纯? 还美丽?
时光如何对你?
我在这里人海中的一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭

我很想你你知道吗？
如果可以就让我再见你

美好微笑清澈眼睛
好确定那持离只毁了我一个而已

我很想你听见了吗?
这是唯一我无解的困境。

那些过去不肯过去，不管我后来遇见多少人，只能叹息都不是你。
我只想爱你。
我在哪里? 你会不会偶尔好奇? 有没有曾经怀疑?
我说我会忘记只是种好意

2009-06-13T10:41:00.000-07:00

Long time no update~

Here some my clubbing photos with my crew..

Stanley's bday

Lucas, Richard and Jen

Fire's night

Phebe and me

Stanley's bday (cont)

lucas, ric, jen, hua di.

Didnt take photos with Stanley.

Coz i am late there and when I reached there,

he already holding the Thai Bar speaker and vomit.

Hereby, I would like to apologize to Thai Bar.

Ben's bday

Me and Jen noob look at Pong's cafe.

After this we headed to Rexbox.

So call ah Beng look~

不会再做个好人

2009-06-07T09:33:00.000-07:00

我不会再做个好人。

好人- 做了一百件好事，是没有人会记得的。

坏人 - 只做个坏事，全天下的人都会知道。

“永恒”

在我卢可薇的字典内。

没有永恒的友情，没有永恒的爱情，

只有永恒的亲情。

此时此刻，我心上的痛是无法形容的。

真心的朋友不用多。

一个就够。

我要的，你给不到。

我能做的就是给你微笑，而不是快乐。

2009-06-06T01:05:00.001-07:00

Photo taken at Imperial Staircase.

emily, nana, wei, jing

Exam.

stress..stress..stress..

Missing you badly

2009-05-30T12:06:00.001-07:00

Babe, I miss you so much tonight..
Seriously I am fucking drunk but I still blogging right here.
Just to tell the one that I miss you a lot..

Midnight post

2009-05-27T12:15:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to Ivy Ting!

Well, I am waiting time passes.
Wait 330am, going to eat at lutong market.
Hungry tummy with beer tank.

Is a boring post I guess.
What I have done tonight?
Went for hair cut with Lucas n Jen at Alan Salon.
Still my hairdresser is Kim, also with Jen.
But Lucas choose Nicole.

After that, we headed to Hai Wai Tian for our dinner.
coz I craved for C Ham.
So we ordered C Ham, Money Cai, Salted fish pork claypot, Fu Rong egg.
All is Ah Jen's favourtie. What to do? He is our boss!

At first, we are waiting the princess finish class at night.
Who knows when we called, she said she bad mood not going to join us!
POTONG STEAM.
Nana joined us, we headed to Fire. Sing K, Pool never we missed.
Neth and Bong joined us as well.

at 12am, we headed to Thai, another 12 tins.
No effects.. It is crowded but I am not in the mood.
Saturday..is coming!
hope Bros dun put plane, also the girls..

没有酒的星期天

2009-05-17T10:19:00.000-07:00

凌晨一点二十分，

我还坐在客厅上网。

觉得今晚特别的安静，

搞得我的心情很差。

The Friday Night

2009-05-17T02:47:00.000-07:00

-Friday Night-

The pork leg of Friday night is Emily.

We go for a dinner at Lou Wai Lou restaurant.

after that,

we head to Rexbox.

3rd floor- TianJing ( the room )

Ordered 24 cans + 7 cans + 4 cans.

No one is drunk when at Rexbox.

Still keep on singing K.

Friends keep bringing in strange friends

till the room is so pack.

Since the night is still young,

we headed to Thai Bar.

Opened 12 cans, I haven drink one mouth.

There are two NOOB drinker spoiled our mood.

Getting so crazy on the dance floor.

keep been warned by bouncer.

One of that two noob is Ang Mo from Germany.

Damn lousy, ended up keep taking care of girls and that two dicks.

Argh~.. no much photos taken coz is a burst night.

失眠了

2009-05-10T09:40:00.000-07:00

怀恋我以前早睡早起-老人家的生活。

现在就像个僵尸一样。

三更半夜，还是生如活虎。

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周末就一定是喝！喝！喝！

为何人就是要搞坏自己的身体才开心？

我也想不起我昨晚喝了多少多，

可是我还是很清醒。

我还看得到谁一直盯着我看，

我今天抱不到仇，不代表我永远抱不到。

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累。。好累。

最近和个朋友有点误会。

慢慢领悟还是別做个好人。。

好人是不会有好下场的。

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对了，妈妈节快乐！

买了一束康乃昔给妈妈。

希望你永远健康美丽，

不要整天唠唠叨叨。

很烦的！

New Hair Cut.

2009-05-08T09:35:00.000-07:00

-New Hair Cut-

by Alan Salon

Hairdresser : Ah Kim

-The front look-

This is the very first I cut hair at Alan Salon

although it is freaking famous in Miri.

I like the front look but kind of spoiled by the hair colour.

-The Right Side-

Did some undercut this time.

I like this side.

But shorten my right side, will bring out my cute ear.

For your information,

two of my ears is different.

One is like elephant one, one is normal one.

Elephant kind of ear is given by my mom,

both of my mom ears is elephant type.

Then the normal one is from my dad.

both of his ears is normal one.

See. I am the combination of my parents~

-My left side-

Been shave till almost Botak already.

and the left side of back also been shaved till kind of horrible.

so my left side view is like coconut!

nvm lar.. just give a try

my hair grow very fast~

炎热的一天

2009-05-06T07:46:00.000-07:00

天气的变化就如人的心情，

我们静得像无人沙滩，

应该是天气的问题。

怎么了？

我也不知道诶。。

觉得怪怪的。

雨过天晴吧？

是我想太多，你总这样说。

不知不觉，520要到了。美里已经升为城市第四年了。

我也二十一了，不是当年的黄毛小子了。

很多人都说我这一年来改变了很多。。

是好事吗？哈哈。

过不久，我们就要面对第二次XX了。

我不问不提，不代表我不在乎，只是我不知道该怎么面对。

你的选择没有错。我会支持你。

我会尽量带给你快乐。

请原凉我，有时的孩子气。

因为谁叫我超爱撒娇~

哈哈

Random post

2009-05-05T06:06:00.000-07:00

Read something I shouldnt know.

Ask something I never ask.

Having some bad feelings which I forgot since ages.

Ouch. never know it can be so pain~

Product modification

2009-04-28T04:53:00.000-07:00

Due to high rate of malaysia citizen got cancer caused of Smoking,

Malaysia Government started to be a Copy Cat.

They steal the way Brunei government modified the cig box!

The reason they doing so is because they assumed that

the photos impact on smokers.

But I can tell you is not effective at all.

(The front)

showing the photo of neck cancer~
( Also the Back )
I used marker pen to cover but failed.
But there is another method to cover it.

How??

Coz there is a transparent hard cover casing with it

when you buy it for the " Promotion Price " of RM8.60

[normal price RM9]

*you have to buy cig box with disgusting photos just can get the

"promotion price"

Know how it helps?

scroll down...

1) put it on ur cig box.

SEE! the disgusting photos is fully covered~

WTF~ Smokers ROCKS.

uhuhuh..miss the classic look of Dunhill Light~

Update~

2009-04-27T09:53:00.000-07:00

Update update!

Recently I am very busy like a Bee.

Presentation~ Clubbing~ Play~ and SICK!!

countless alcohol add on lack of rest

= fever,sore throat,flu,cough

Can u imagine wad I vomit out everytime I coughed is

something look like the chicken lemak?

as yellow as that.

soon became green.

Can u imagine I cant even walk for whole day?

No energy at all

Long time no sick until such "high level" already.

Recently, ppl do say : " wei, you have changed a lot"

But, for me I never realised it.

I just know I became more n more speechless and numb~

Time to sleep. Avoid get sick again.

Nights * sniff *

Photoshoot day

2009-04-18T03:32:00.000-07:00

Yea.

Named me Ah Beng.

Luckily the pro Ning can catch the photo really fast.

If not, I guess I have to smoke 1 pack of cig.

Sorry for my Becek Face.

Coz there is damn a lot people looking at me.

Somemore got Uncle "xiong" me~

gosh.. Never dare me do this anymore.

Saw the mountain behind?

In the process of taking photos,

suddenly one KAMPUNG of dogs ran down from that mountain.

The first one who run is not me

but the photographer- ning.

Yea.

No doubt. Is me.

Thanks Ning for the super duper nice shoots.

Sorry Ning for not being corporate.

I'm loving it.

Me & You

2009-04-14T09:50:00.000-07:00

Me & you met today.

Nothing much special.

Still had the great day with you.

The distance is always there.

If you can step further one step,

I willing to step further the rest steps.

Goodnights

The delayed post for Bowie

2009-04-12T10:50:00.000-07:00

Ya.
She is Bowie.
Usually I call her 7 ge bong bong or Nappie.
Nappie - why i call her this?
The first day of school open,
I saw there was a girl walking on the road.
Wah..Quite nap lo that gal.
I drove passed..OMG
Is her..therefore Nappie

We pose everytimes.
We do silly things.
We sing like we are the rockstar.
but we dun wear allstar.

The movie- Marley & Me

2009-04-11T06:58:00.000-07:00

Spent a night with myself.
Yea. myself. Yea. alone in a Saturday Night!
Reasons why I am not going out is not the point of my post.

Or maybe I dunno what is the main point I am blogging this.
Just after been a long time, I never have all the fcuked up emotions I am having now.

Talked to a close friend in this afternoon.
A fren that somehow I care a lot.

She told me
" Love changes everything "
I was wondering is that true?
Until she asked me one questions.
"Have you ever felt what fcuked up emotions you are having right now
when you were not a single?? "
* Seriously, I did not. I never feel lonely *

The memories is haunting me.
The night is driving me crazy.
The headache after alcohol is torturing me.
( Yea, can u imagine I start having my drinking section with my friend at 6pm? )
( Imagine that my Uncle's life.. )

- A dog won mind whether you are smart or dumb, rich or poor.
Scolding him " The world worse dog " will not influences him any. He won takes revenges.
A dog will only gives you everything of him with no reasons -
from Marley & Me

A silent walker

2009-04-09T08:24:00.000-07:00

Everyone loves Weekend,
but I don.

Sorry,
I cant hide my emotions all the times.

The True Love

2009-04-05T02:16:00.000-07:00

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21 . Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23.
The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US .
Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication.
In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of quimo to end.

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care
of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss

An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that ketie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.
The other couple in the picture are Nick's parents. Excited to see her son marrying his high school sweetheart.

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube , listening a song from her husband and friends

At the reception, katie had to take a few rests.The pain do not let her to be standing up for long periods

Katie died five days after her wedding day. Watching a women so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think..... Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it last. We should stop making our lives complicated.

Life is short Break the rules forgive quickly kiss passionately, love truly laugh constantly And never stop smiling no matter how strange life is Life is not always the party we expected to be but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful

Quote for the day

2009-04-03T11:04:00.000-07:00

Smoking,
is not an addiction, but a habit.

I told my fren that I wanna quit it.
My fren said : " That's a joke of the century"

Quit smoking is just an easy job,
is all depends on your heart.

It just take times..

Love.
is always complicated.
Can be sweet, can be bitter.

You will never able to forget someone,
you will just able to hide someone in the inner part of your heart.

It also take times for you to dig a hole to put the one inside your heart.

Is all about times..

Stress

2009-04-01T08:43:00.000-07:00

*The stress One*

Lotsa assignments..
Mid terms..
coming and coming..

Bad Temper + Lack of rest

releasing everyone.. everywhere.. anytime..

Sorry.
I just being mean.
Sorry

2009-03-31T11:04:00.000-07:00

8号恋人：每月 8日、 17日、 26日出生者
　　8 这个数字天生就拥有强大的能量，在 8号恋人身上，也有一股足以蛊惑人般的魅力，这股饱含能量的气质让8号恋人的魅力浑然天成，宛如天生的爱情操盘手。
　　掌控的权力关系对 8号人来说是很值得玩味的游戏，和恋人之间， 8 号人就相当热衷于这样的角力游戏，尤其喜欢彼此受对方强烈的吸引，我们形容8 号恋人可以用一支小指头驾驭他的恋人，而且对方还乐于被他指使，8 号恋人就是有这样的能耐，宛如爱情中高高在上的王者，不容侵犯。
　　这样王者般的恋人其实希望恋人的目光永远只在自己身上，但王者的尊严又不允许 8 号恋人在情感上认输，因此， 8号恋人从不喜欢刻意展示自己和情感，可是不论他们看起来多么冷静、无情，其实心底还是很向往热情，尤其对执着的恋情渴望得很。
　　失恋症结点： 8号恋人通常爱得重、恨得也重，另一半必须心脏够强，能够担负得起才行。
　　你是哪种8 号恋人？
　　每月8日出生的8号恋人： 8 日出生的恋人有魔力般的魅力，但是想要掌控他们却是难上加难，倒不如自己投降来得快些。
　　每月17日出生的8号恋人： 17日出生的，是最冷静、理智的恋人，往往感情反而得要靠着理性，维持得比谁都长。
　　每月26 日出生的8号恋人：看似柔情似水，却是无比坚毅的恋人，软硬兼施的高明手段，在情路上相遇可是加倍的刺激过瘾哩！

just a human being

2009-03-30T01:48:00.000-07:00

I am just a human being
having uncontrollable emotions, blame me as bad temper.
But you won do so anymore, if u put yourself in my shoes.
You will never imagine the pain of my heart.

Outsider, dun blame that I am silly.
Blame me for I am not a PlayBoy.

I am not a Batman
only appears in your mind when you need helps.
Don tell me you love me because of loneliness.
Ignore me.
I just forgot how to love someone.
Maybe I am not the Somebody anymore.

2009-03-26T07:16:00.000-07:00

七个对不起,换来女孩跳楼，男孩疯了。

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。

——纯纯的“对不起”。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

——“对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

——“对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

——“对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

The Cat Story

2009-03-25T01:45:00.000-07:00

Is a rainy morning,
the yellowie has brighten up the greyie's morning.
The smiles on greyie's face worth everything yellowie done.

Is a hot afternoon,
Heartless of greyie darken down the yellowie afternoon.
The numbie face on yellowie's face shown everything.

Is gonna be a cold night to yellowie.

Sometimes is not greyie dun care yellowie,
is just yellowie care greyie too much~

I am so sorry

2009-03-23T02:51:00.000-07:00

Sorry,
I just so sorry for what I have done.
I won find any excuses for myself anymore.
I know is my fault.
This is the second time you get hurt this year.

Baby,
I promised I will not keep my brain functioning while driving.
I will only concentrate on the road.
I will not let my emo"ness" influences my skill

*I am referring to my ride -baby1881- *
sigh..

The One

2009-03-22T00:11:00.001-07:00

She is mua Nappie.. ^^

The hot afternoon we spent at Starbucks.

*assignment mode*

A new blog a new start?

2009-03-21T10:15:00.000-07:00

Err..Mmm..
Let's share with you all
the most happening night of my life!
20th March 2009

Very first time I been checked by police in da club.
Well.. as usual passing my night times with beers with a friend.
Kelly ( The cousin that I sayang the most ) called.
"Where you going to bring me tonight? "
Oppss..seems like I have the responsibility to take good care of her.
Have to bring her to the heaven by tonight~
Wings - FULL!
therefore head to Sports Cafe.

Lucas ( My curtin crew ) sms.
" I am heading to Thai Bar "
Since the night still young,
I brought up Kelly and a whole KAMPUNG of her friends.

The music played well..
The girls shake their body like a cyclone..
The guys flirting around like a desperate wolf..
The hottest gal ever appeared beside me~
The A&W~
wtf.. What a cyclone..
*Shake Shake BOOM BOOM*

Was enjoying myself in the dance floor.
Na Na Na NA Na *Music playing*
SUDDENLY!
Light on.
" POLICE HERE "
Wtf!!!! DAMN SPOILED.
I was getting more n more tipsy while waiting them checking.
Illusion + Beer is working in my body.
Once, I feel myself is at the heaven.
Twice, I felt myself is at the hell.
Going up and down.

When I reached home,
TERUS pengsan on my bed.
I can feel I couldnt stand anymore after forcing myself to drive back home.

Around 3am,
I woke up coz I need to pee badly.
For no reason, I stood beside my sis bed side.

Starting touching the wall right beside her
*Finding the switch to on the toilet light*

After while, I was standing there.
*Cause in my mind there is someone in the toilet*

After while, I back to touching the wall again.
*Cause I wanna kick the toilet door to ask the person inside come out*

My sis : " What's wrong with you???!!! "
*Coz I started pulling off my shorts*

Me : " I WANNA PEE PEE LA!!"
Then I left my bedroom, walked to toilet myself.

The next morning I woke up, damn headache!
Reading the sms my sis left for me,
I laughed till cannot coz I remember wad I did.
But I just couldnt control myself~
What A Rotten Wei.